I have not written in a while because I finished a new book on California--my California and started a new one on Christianity. It is ironic that I am writing a book on this African Mediterrenean religion which has nothing to do with desert Apache culture but nonetheless it is ever present. I will see what comes out because writing is like a relationship you never know what the end product will be. They mostly end.
I don't write too much because I do not believe someone is reading except my faithful five friends whom I am ever thankful for.
I sat on a panel last week at Cypress College with Hugo Moreno, Sandra Lopez and Gustavo Arellano. It was insane simply because the students had read my book "Higher Education as Ignorance" versus only hearing what the others read. All were good in their uniqueness and we shared our views which depended on who we were as people.
The common questions to me were about "Machismo" simply because I put it out on the pages and obviously there is interest even if they disagree. I like machismo as I told the class, it was my mother's fault in a good way. It is a survival strategy because we do not live in a nice society. If you do not know how to defend yourself, you won't survive. I live it: all my work places have been places of conflict that have ruined my small career I have if you consider teaching as a part time faculty a career. Some would argue community colleges are grade 13 from ages 18-30. Women have been conflicting and how much money didn't I blow there. Now I am smart, I spend it on my soccer games.
Most did not like what I said but they have their reasons but I have mine and obviously the two publishers of my books: Floricanto Press and Rowman and Littlefield believe there is a necessity there. Lastly, I just cannot accept being pushed around by anybody, much less a woman, I have my personal pride.
If you buy my books and read them I would love to discuss my thoughts because I do not believe in borrowing ideals nor quoting others. I stand and fall on my own words and even though I do not have institutional support or a godfather, my books can be checked out at college libraries. I do see life like hell because it is.
Now I have to find a job which is the worse right now for Mexican American males who have the highest unemployment rate in California. Degrees mean nothing for me.
