It is strange to write a book about Christianity when I don't believe in the concept of Christ for cultural purposes. As a Cucapah Mayo Apache from Inglewood, CA I cannot believe in traditions from northeastern Africa. I just can't, those are myths that are not believable but more than that, they refer to customs and cultures from other people that I do not have a DNA relationship to. I'm not Middle Eastern, African or Mediterrenean. And I see Christianity as cultural genocide because most know the Bible stories but few know their indigenous stories. Even worse, they defend Christianity and laugh at our beliefs in brujeria-witchcraft and dreams. At least the dream was real but 2000 year old stories that were translated from translations has no place in North America. Could Apache traditions be imposed in the middle east and be told that the bible is fake? How would they react?
My new book deals with my experience in the 1980's attending an Anglo Mid Western Protestant Church. It is being edited but has been submitted for publishing consideration. The book is not fiction rather a lived experience.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
I love blogging
Nobody reads them. And I don't want to beg them to read and sell myself like I was an unwanted oversize polo shirt that is either pink or purple. No wonder nobody wants them.
I'll keep writing and pretend somebody reads like I need attention.
I'll keep writing and pretend somebody reads like I need attention.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Consequences To Writing
If anyone wants to dive into the world of writing I only recommend one thing. Beware of the Mexican immigrant, Mexican American politically correct and the so called "educated" Mexican populace; males and females, feminist and gay or not.
They will destroy your reputation if you are independent and do not parrot their believes. They will smear your reputation and you will be shout out of any writing circles or teaching spots if you teach. But that is the problem, who made them "the keepers of the culture". They can't be open minded to creativity and you are instantly wrong even if they have never published a sentence. They believe that being Mexican American is in their experience only and the rest have no say.
They can't sit and debate without insulting and acting with their esteem arrogance that they forget what they are to debate about. They remind me of the stupid three males who were drinking beer in a park in Laguna Niguel and singing. They began to each claim to sing better than the other that they ended up fighting. Finally one was dead and the other two prosecuted and are going to jail. All because two couldn't hear the other one out so they killed him. And yes they were Mexicans.
That is how this crowd is but they couldn't sit and hear one out because they believe their studies makes them superior when their education is not who they are. They believed the verses too much.
Just beware, that if you write you will be persecuted. But do it to show who has more testosterone of the spirit.
suave
They will destroy your reputation if you are independent and do not parrot their believes. They will smear your reputation and you will be shout out of any writing circles or teaching spots if you teach. But that is the problem, who made them "the keepers of the culture". They can't be open minded to creativity and you are instantly wrong even if they have never published a sentence. They believe that being Mexican American is in their experience only and the rest have no say.
They can't sit and debate without insulting and acting with their esteem arrogance that they forget what they are to debate about. They remind me of the stupid three males who were drinking beer in a park in Laguna Niguel and singing. They began to each claim to sing better than the other that they ended up fighting. Finally one was dead and the other two prosecuted and are going to jail. All because two couldn't hear the other one out so they killed him. And yes they were Mexicans.
That is how this crowd is but they couldn't sit and hear one out because they believe their studies makes them superior when their education is not who they are. They believed the verses too much.
Just beware, that if you write you will be persecuted. But do it to show who has more testosterone of the spirit.
suave
Monday, June 28, 2010
Unemployment and Not Liked
http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-49809-LA-Unemployment-Examiner~y2010m6d28-Certain-Unemployment-Should-Not-Be-Legally-Permitted
I wrote this article and I thought you might like it or not.
Based on the arbitraryness of the work place.
The workplace is worse than hell.
I wrote this article and I thought you might like it or not.
Based on the arbitraryness of the work place.
The workplace is worse than hell.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Don't Read
I have to admit, I'm not a reader anymore. Reading was not improving my hand skills. As my mother once told me, you can read many books but don't know how to use a hammer. And she was right, how many times had I not banged my thumbs with compressed steel.
But that wasn't the reason I stopped reading. I stopped reading because I felt detached from real life and it was not helping with my social life. I was becoming a hermit and was resembling one of those Jesuit priests without the bribing. But it was in layers. I first stopped reading theory. I got tired of the stupid Political Science Theory, then the Urban Planning Theory--Ed Soja and Allen Scott were overrated--ok I didn't read it but I glanced at it.
Then I stopped reading the history books because they all sounded the same. I was not turned on. Why teach if you can just read the book. Too anal, too much Marxism or Proudism, too English American and too righteous.
Then I stopped reading in Spanish. I had read most of the Gabriel Garcia Marquez stuff but after the third novel, I felt I was reading too much history of Colombia. But he's lived in Mexico City since the mid 1960's. What does he really know of Colombia? Then he focused on those French writers that he interloped was a type of poetry. I couldn't take it. Though I have to admit, I liked the whorehouses he wrote about but after a while I thought to myself, I must go but they cost money and are banned in California. All great books take place in whorehouses but there are none in California.
The other stuff--feminism and lifestyles I could careless. Another type of personal history like Marquez.
I even read the Chicano Generation but it was too East LA or too Texas which I dispised both and even tried Mexico and Mexico immigrant but that is another type of self history which I also could not relate to. I don't care for stories on crossing mountains in Mexico to get here.
I got tired and just gave up reading. I even learned that many whom I taught with also did not read. And thought, if the leaders aren't reading why would the followers unless it is a phone text.
So I gave up reading.
But that wasn't the reason I stopped reading. I stopped reading because I felt detached from real life and it was not helping with my social life. I was becoming a hermit and was resembling one of those Jesuit priests without the bribing. But it was in layers. I first stopped reading theory. I got tired of the stupid Political Science Theory, then the Urban Planning Theory--Ed Soja and Allen Scott were overrated--ok I didn't read it but I glanced at it.
Then I stopped reading the history books because they all sounded the same. I was not turned on. Why teach if you can just read the book. Too anal, too much Marxism or Proudism, too English American and too righteous.
Then I stopped reading in Spanish. I had read most of the Gabriel Garcia Marquez stuff but after the third novel, I felt I was reading too much history of Colombia. But he's lived in Mexico City since the mid 1960's. What does he really know of Colombia? Then he focused on those French writers that he interloped was a type of poetry. I couldn't take it. Though I have to admit, I liked the whorehouses he wrote about but after a while I thought to myself, I must go but they cost money and are banned in California. All great books take place in whorehouses but there are none in California.
The other stuff--feminism and lifestyles I could careless. Another type of personal history like Marquez.
I even read the Chicano Generation but it was too East LA or too Texas which I dispised both and even tried Mexico and Mexico immigrant but that is another type of self history which I also could not relate to. I don't care for stories on crossing mountains in Mexico to get here.
I got tired and just gave up reading. I even learned that many whom I taught with also did not read. And thought, if the leaders aren't reading why would the followers unless it is a phone text.
So I gave up reading.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Who are we?
I once read by a female writer on why should she be labeled an identity, versus a human then when on to identify herself as a Latina.
I found this to be the most contradictory of points because the word Latina which I use to believe was either the metal tub or the name of a Black woman has now become the entry point to heaven. If you don't say the word with a Spanish last name then you won't be allowed into the new panteon of an informal racial category that came forth some time in the 1990's.
The imposition came from the Puerto Ricans and Cubans in the US East Coast and the Spanish media outlets and then the few academia centers of the East who attempted to make sense of not only Puerto Ricans but Dominicans and Colombians but excluded Haitians. Why? Because they speak French which is also a Latin based language. Where is the logic? The Haitians are on the same island as the Dominicans. The same island.
This lumping of people has really really hurt generational Mexican Americans--Califorences much like mixing with other groups have hurt Mexican Americans. The answer is simple, whether the label is Latino or mxing with Whites, Blacks or other people from Centro America--the Mexican American stops being Mexican American. I should know, I see it in my family. I even see it when southern Mexicans from Michoacan or Jalisco mix with Califorence Mexican Americans. The food is different--I can't handle those corundas and that horrible white menudo without maize. I'm glad I never stayed with those exes from Michoacan. They don't even eat flour tortillas or pinto frijoles, they eat black beans. The Apache needs his flour tortillas and pinto beans. I don't even know what Cuban or Puerto Rican food is and neither do the Puerto Ricans because they are always eating Cuban food in Los Angeles. Show me a Puerto Rican restaurant in Los Angeles.
Thus just because media outlets have told the younger generations those 25 and under that they are Latinos they accept it blindly. Much like young soldiers who are given orders to walk on the minefield and they do so without realizing they are fodder for the officers. So they march blindly and accept the orders. What makes a Mexican American a latino? What does latino mean? Language? More than half of Mexican Spanish is Uto Aztecan whether Nahuatl, Cahita, Purepecha or Apachean. The same would apply for every country south of Mexico. I should know, I traveled to all of Central America, Bolivia, Peru and Argentina and I was linguistically lost. I was even lost when I would meet people from Centro Mexico who moved to Inglewood, I would not understand their lingo and only others from those regions would explain the linguistic variations. If Spanish is the sole determinant, then English would also be considered a Latino language because half of it is Latin based at least British English. California English is based on Mexican American Spanish--rancho, valle, delfin, chota, burritos. Where is the logic?
But if these individuals are accepting the label they can't be faulted either because the so called "leaders" Chicano Studies of the academes accept the same logic. Didn't this group of identiy less souls work so hard to create the "East Los Angeles' term of Chicano only to trade it in for Latino 30 years later. What do you expect from individuals that were mixing Che Guevara, Benito Juarez, the Virgen de Guadalupe and Cesar Chavez as one. Talk about being brain dead or brainless. Most of these quasi academics just follow what their White College professors cloned them to be. Identityless until that position in Chicano Studies opens up for them. Hence their hire is not based on academics but on perception. Look at Luis Arroyo at CSULB and David Rodriguez at CSUN and why forget Michael Soldatenko at CSULA. At best Whitewash clones who themselves don't have an identity and only have their position at these so called "Academes" if they really are? What have they produced of their own thinking? They haven't even updated their courses, they relie on newer clones which they have given access to by hiring them even if they are not Mexican American which historically meant Chicano.
Chicanos only meant US born and should only mean US born Mexican Americans. It is not Mexico born people, much less Centro Americans or Puerto Ricans. If you can't notice the difference you really are high and stupid. At least high you were attempting to find clarity but the academe teaches straight ignorance and confuses the soldier and sends him or her to die without question.
Maybe I should claim my Whiteness as my birth certificate states. At least that is official versus some stupid Spanish media telling me we are the same when we all know we are not.
Thank God I am not a Latino.
I found this to be the most contradictory of points because the word Latina which I use to believe was either the metal tub or the name of a Black woman has now become the entry point to heaven. If you don't say the word with a Spanish last name then you won't be allowed into the new panteon of an informal racial category that came forth some time in the 1990's.
The imposition came from the Puerto Ricans and Cubans in the US East Coast and the Spanish media outlets and then the few academia centers of the East who attempted to make sense of not only Puerto Ricans but Dominicans and Colombians but excluded Haitians. Why? Because they speak French which is also a Latin based language. Where is the logic? The Haitians are on the same island as the Dominicans. The same island.
This lumping of people has really really hurt generational Mexican Americans--Califorences much like mixing with other groups have hurt Mexican Americans. The answer is simple, whether the label is Latino or mxing with Whites, Blacks or other people from Centro America--the Mexican American stops being Mexican American. I should know, I see it in my family. I even see it when southern Mexicans from Michoacan or Jalisco mix with Califorence Mexican Americans. The food is different--I can't handle those corundas and that horrible white menudo without maize. I'm glad I never stayed with those exes from Michoacan. They don't even eat flour tortillas or pinto frijoles, they eat black beans. The Apache needs his flour tortillas and pinto beans. I don't even know what Cuban or Puerto Rican food is and neither do the Puerto Ricans because they are always eating Cuban food in Los Angeles. Show me a Puerto Rican restaurant in Los Angeles.
Thus just because media outlets have told the younger generations those 25 and under that they are Latinos they accept it blindly. Much like young soldiers who are given orders to walk on the minefield and they do so without realizing they are fodder for the officers. So they march blindly and accept the orders. What makes a Mexican American a latino? What does latino mean? Language? More than half of Mexican Spanish is Uto Aztecan whether Nahuatl, Cahita, Purepecha or Apachean. The same would apply for every country south of Mexico. I should know, I traveled to all of Central America, Bolivia, Peru and Argentina and I was linguistically lost. I was even lost when I would meet people from Centro Mexico who moved to Inglewood, I would not understand their lingo and only others from those regions would explain the linguistic variations. If Spanish is the sole determinant, then English would also be considered a Latino language because half of it is Latin based at least British English. California English is based on Mexican American Spanish--rancho, valle, delfin, chota, burritos. Where is the logic?
But if these individuals are accepting the label they can't be faulted either because the so called "leaders" Chicano Studies of the academes accept the same logic. Didn't this group of identiy less souls work so hard to create the "East Los Angeles' term of Chicano only to trade it in for Latino 30 years later. What do you expect from individuals that were mixing Che Guevara, Benito Juarez, the Virgen de Guadalupe and Cesar Chavez as one. Talk about being brain dead or brainless. Most of these quasi academics just follow what their White College professors cloned them to be. Identityless until that position in Chicano Studies opens up for them. Hence their hire is not based on academics but on perception. Look at Luis Arroyo at CSULB and David Rodriguez at CSUN and why forget Michael Soldatenko at CSULA. At best Whitewash clones who themselves don't have an identity and only have their position at these so called "Academes" if they really are? What have they produced of their own thinking? They haven't even updated their courses, they relie on newer clones which they have given access to by hiring them even if they are not Mexican American which historically meant Chicano.
Chicanos only meant US born and should only mean US born Mexican Americans. It is not Mexico born people, much less Centro Americans or Puerto Ricans. If you can't notice the difference you really are high and stupid. At least high you were attempting to find clarity but the academe teaches straight ignorance and confuses the soldier and sends him or her to die without question.
Maybe I should claim my Whiteness as my birth certificate states. At least that is official versus some stupid Spanish media telling me we are the same when we all know we are not.
Thank God I am not a Latino.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sensitive
If anybody ever criticizes me for being insensitive to women, I want to confess the opposite.
Why?
Simple, I attended The Lilith Fair. I paid money to attend and for my bad company at the time, I paid for her too. I did two good deeds for the female cause.
So I cannot be accused of being insensitive to women if I supported the most female event out there by watching female performers. I don't think they can write like the males for one simple reason: they don't get their hearts broken like the males.
Hence to not suffer like a male means that you don't have the pain like those Mexican singers with phrases de tragos de amargo liquor-bitter liquor drinks. Sounds like Nighttrain and Thunderbird that my buddy use to drink in high school. Or the other quote-Even the honey is bitter.
Can women write those pains? I don't think so because those are only writable when you are heavily heart broken and women don't suffer the way males do because they don't get rejected the way males get slapped for being males.
I'm going to now play the guitar.
Why?
Simple, I attended The Lilith Fair. I paid money to attend and for my bad company at the time, I paid for her too. I did two good deeds for the female cause.
So I cannot be accused of being insensitive to women if I supported the most female event out there by watching female performers. I don't think they can write like the males for one simple reason: they don't get their hearts broken like the males.
Hence to not suffer like a male means that you don't have the pain like those Mexican singers with phrases de tragos de amargo liquor-bitter liquor drinks. Sounds like Nighttrain and Thunderbird that my buddy use to drink in high school. Or the other quote-Even the honey is bitter.
Can women write those pains? I don't think so because those are only writable when you are heavily heart broken and women don't suffer the way males do because they don't get rejected the way males get slapped for being males.
I'm going to now play the guitar.
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