http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-49809-LA-Unemployment-Examiner~y2010m6d28-Certain-Unemployment-Should-Not-Be-Legally-Permitted
I wrote this article and I thought you might like it or not.
Based on the arbitraryness of the work place.
The workplace is worse than hell.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Don't Read
I have to admit, I'm not a reader anymore. Reading was not improving my hand skills. As my mother once told me, you can read many books but don't know how to use a hammer. And she was right, how many times had I not banged my thumbs with compressed steel.
But that wasn't the reason I stopped reading. I stopped reading because I felt detached from real life and it was not helping with my social life. I was becoming a hermit and was resembling one of those Jesuit priests without the bribing. But it was in layers. I first stopped reading theory. I got tired of the stupid Political Science Theory, then the Urban Planning Theory--Ed Soja and Allen Scott were overrated--ok I didn't read it but I glanced at it.
Then I stopped reading the history books because they all sounded the same. I was not turned on. Why teach if you can just read the book. Too anal, too much Marxism or Proudism, too English American and too righteous.
Then I stopped reading in Spanish. I had read most of the Gabriel Garcia Marquez stuff but after the third novel, I felt I was reading too much history of Colombia. But he's lived in Mexico City since the mid 1960's. What does he really know of Colombia? Then he focused on those French writers that he interloped was a type of poetry. I couldn't take it. Though I have to admit, I liked the whorehouses he wrote about but after a while I thought to myself, I must go but they cost money and are banned in California. All great books take place in whorehouses but there are none in California.
The other stuff--feminism and lifestyles I could careless. Another type of personal history like Marquez.
I even read the Chicano Generation but it was too East LA or too Texas which I dispised both and even tried Mexico and Mexico immigrant but that is another type of self history which I also could not relate to. I don't care for stories on crossing mountains in Mexico to get here.
I got tired and just gave up reading. I even learned that many whom I taught with also did not read. And thought, if the leaders aren't reading why would the followers unless it is a phone text.
So I gave up reading.
But that wasn't the reason I stopped reading. I stopped reading because I felt detached from real life and it was not helping with my social life. I was becoming a hermit and was resembling one of those Jesuit priests without the bribing. But it was in layers. I first stopped reading theory. I got tired of the stupid Political Science Theory, then the Urban Planning Theory--Ed Soja and Allen Scott were overrated--ok I didn't read it but I glanced at it.
Then I stopped reading the history books because they all sounded the same. I was not turned on. Why teach if you can just read the book. Too anal, too much Marxism or Proudism, too English American and too righteous.
Then I stopped reading in Spanish. I had read most of the Gabriel Garcia Marquez stuff but after the third novel, I felt I was reading too much history of Colombia. But he's lived in Mexico City since the mid 1960's. What does he really know of Colombia? Then he focused on those French writers that he interloped was a type of poetry. I couldn't take it. Though I have to admit, I liked the whorehouses he wrote about but after a while I thought to myself, I must go but they cost money and are banned in California. All great books take place in whorehouses but there are none in California.
The other stuff--feminism and lifestyles I could careless. Another type of personal history like Marquez.
I even read the Chicano Generation but it was too East LA or too Texas which I dispised both and even tried Mexico and Mexico immigrant but that is another type of self history which I also could not relate to. I don't care for stories on crossing mountains in Mexico to get here.
I got tired and just gave up reading. I even learned that many whom I taught with also did not read. And thought, if the leaders aren't reading why would the followers unless it is a phone text.
So I gave up reading.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Who are we?
I once read by a female writer on why should she be labeled an identity, versus a human then when on to identify herself as a Latina.
I found this to be the most contradictory of points because the word Latina which I use to believe was either the metal tub or the name of a Black woman has now become the entry point to heaven. If you don't say the word with a Spanish last name then you won't be allowed into the new panteon of an informal racial category that came forth some time in the 1990's.
The imposition came from the Puerto Ricans and Cubans in the US East Coast and the Spanish media outlets and then the few academia centers of the East who attempted to make sense of not only Puerto Ricans but Dominicans and Colombians but excluded Haitians. Why? Because they speak French which is also a Latin based language. Where is the logic? The Haitians are on the same island as the Dominicans. The same island.
This lumping of people has really really hurt generational Mexican Americans--Califorences much like mixing with other groups have hurt Mexican Americans. The answer is simple, whether the label is Latino or mxing with Whites, Blacks or other people from Centro America--the Mexican American stops being Mexican American. I should know, I see it in my family. I even see it when southern Mexicans from Michoacan or Jalisco mix with Califorence Mexican Americans. The food is different--I can't handle those corundas and that horrible white menudo without maize. I'm glad I never stayed with those exes from Michoacan. They don't even eat flour tortillas or pinto frijoles, they eat black beans. The Apache needs his flour tortillas and pinto beans. I don't even know what Cuban or Puerto Rican food is and neither do the Puerto Ricans because they are always eating Cuban food in Los Angeles. Show me a Puerto Rican restaurant in Los Angeles.
Thus just because media outlets have told the younger generations those 25 and under that they are Latinos they accept it blindly. Much like young soldiers who are given orders to walk on the minefield and they do so without realizing they are fodder for the officers. So they march blindly and accept the orders. What makes a Mexican American a latino? What does latino mean? Language? More than half of Mexican Spanish is Uto Aztecan whether Nahuatl, Cahita, Purepecha or Apachean. The same would apply for every country south of Mexico. I should know, I traveled to all of Central America, Bolivia, Peru and Argentina and I was linguistically lost. I was even lost when I would meet people from Centro Mexico who moved to Inglewood, I would not understand their lingo and only others from those regions would explain the linguistic variations. If Spanish is the sole determinant, then English would also be considered a Latino language because half of it is Latin based at least British English. California English is based on Mexican American Spanish--rancho, valle, delfin, chota, burritos. Where is the logic?
But if these individuals are accepting the label they can't be faulted either because the so called "leaders" Chicano Studies of the academes accept the same logic. Didn't this group of identiy less souls work so hard to create the "East Los Angeles' term of Chicano only to trade it in for Latino 30 years later. What do you expect from individuals that were mixing Che Guevara, Benito Juarez, the Virgen de Guadalupe and Cesar Chavez as one. Talk about being brain dead or brainless. Most of these quasi academics just follow what their White College professors cloned them to be. Identityless until that position in Chicano Studies opens up for them. Hence their hire is not based on academics but on perception. Look at Luis Arroyo at CSULB and David Rodriguez at CSUN and why forget Michael Soldatenko at CSULA. At best Whitewash clones who themselves don't have an identity and only have their position at these so called "Academes" if they really are? What have they produced of their own thinking? They haven't even updated their courses, they relie on newer clones which they have given access to by hiring them even if they are not Mexican American which historically meant Chicano.
Chicanos only meant US born and should only mean US born Mexican Americans. It is not Mexico born people, much less Centro Americans or Puerto Ricans. If you can't notice the difference you really are high and stupid. At least high you were attempting to find clarity but the academe teaches straight ignorance and confuses the soldier and sends him or her to die without question.
Maybe I should claim my Whiteness as my birth certificate states. At least that is official versus some stupid Spanish media telling me we are the same when we all know we are not.
Thank God I am not a Latino.
I found this to be the most contradictory of points because the word Latina which I use to believe was either the metal tub or the name of a Black woman has now become the entry point to heaven. If you don't say the word with a Spanish last name then you won't be allowed into the new panteon of an informal racial category that came forth some time in the 1990's.
The imposition came from the Puerto Ricans and Cubans in the US East Coast and the Spanish media outlets and then the few academia centers of the East who attempted to make sense of not only Puerto Ricans but Dominicans and Colombians but excluded Haitians. Why? Because they speak French which is also a Latin based language. Where is the logic? The Haitians are on the same island as the Dominicans. The same island.
This lumping of people has really really hurt generational Mexican Americans--Califorences much like mixing with other groups have hurt Mexican Americans. The answer is simple, whether the label is Latino or mxing with Whites, Blacks or other people from Centro America--the Mexican American stops being Mexican American. I should know, I see it in my family. I even see it when southern Mexicans from Michoacan or Jalisco mix with Califorence Mexican Americans. The food is different--I can't handle those corundas and that horrible white menudo without maize. I'm glad I never stayed with those exes from Michoacan. They don't even eat flour tortillas or pinto frijoles, they eat black beans. The Apache needs his flour tortillas and pinto beans. I don't even know what Cuban or Puerto Rican food is and neither do the Puerto Ricans because they are always eating Cuban food in Los Angeles. Show me a Puerto Rican restaurant in Los Angeles.
Thus just because media outlets have told the younger generations those 25 and under that they are Latinos they accept it blindly. Much like young soldiers who are given orders to walk on the minefield and they do so without realizing they are fodder for the officers. So they march blindly and accept the orders. What makes a Mexican American a latino? What does latino mean? Language? More than half of Mexican Spanish is Uto Aztecan whether Nahuatl, Cahita, Purepecha or Apachean. The same would apply for every country south of Mexico. I should know, I traveled to all of Central America, Bolivia, Peru and Argentina and I was linguistically lost. I was even lost when I would meet people from Centro Mexico who moved to Inglewood, I would not understand their lingo and only others from those regions would explain the linguistic variations. If Spanish is the sole determinant, then English would also be considered a Latino language because half of it is Latin based at least British English. California English is based on Mexican American Spanish--rancho, valle, delfin, chota, burritos. Where is the logic?
But if these individuals are accepting the label they can't be faulted either because the so called "leaders" Chicano Studies of the academes accept the same logic. Didn't this group of identiy less souls work so hard to create the "East Los Angeles' term of Chicano only to trade it in for Latino 30 years later. What do you expect from individuals that were mixing Che Guevara, Benito Juarez, the Virgen de Guadalupe and Cesar Chavez as one. Talk about being brain dead or brainless. Most of these quasi academics just follow what their White College professors cloned them to be. Identityless until that position in Chicano Studies opens up for them. Hence their hire is not based on academics but on perception. Look at Luis Arroyo at CSULB and David Rodriguez at CSUN and why forget Michael Soldatenko at CSULA. At best Whitewash clones who themselves don't have an identity and only have their position at these so called "Academes" if they really are? What have they produced of their own thinking? They haven't even updated their courses, they relie on newer clones which they have given access to by hiring them even if they are not Mexican American which historically meant Chicano.
Chicanos only meant US born and should only mean US born Mexican Americans. It is not Mexico born people, much less Centro Americans or Puerto Ricans. If you can't notice the difference you really are high and stupid. At least high you were attempting to find clarity but the academe teaches straight ignorance and confuses the soldier and sends him or her to die without question.
Maybe I should claim my Whiteness as my birth certificate states. At least that is official versus some stupid Spanish media telling me we are the same when we all know we are not.
Thank God I am not a Latino.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sensitive
If anybody ever criticizes me for being insensitive to women, I want to confess the opposite.
Why?
Simple, I attended The Lilith Fair. I paid money to attend and for my bad company at the time, I paid for her too. I did two good deeds for the female cause.
So I cannot be accused of being insensitive to women if I supported the most female event out there by watching female performers. I don't think they can write like the males for one simple reason: they don't get their hearts broken like the males.
Hence to not suffer like a male means that you don't have the pain like those Mexican singers with phrases de tragos de amargo liquor-bitter liquor drinks. Sounds like Nighttrain and Thunderbird that my buddy use to drink in high school. Or the other quote-Even the honey is bitter.
Can women write those pains? I don't think so because those are only writable when you are heavily heart broken and women don't suffer the way males do because they don't get rejected the way males get slapped for being males.
I'm going to now play the guitar.
Why?
Simple, I attended The Lilith Fair. I paid money to attend and for my bad company at the time, I paid for her too. I did two good deeds for the female cause.
So I cannot be accused of being insensitive to women if I supported the most female event out there by watching female performers. I don't think they can write like the males for one simple reason: they don't get their hearts broken like the males.
Hence to not suffer like a male means that you don't have the pain like those Mexican singers with phrases de tragos de amargo liquor-bitter liquor drinks. Sounds like Nighttrain and Thunderbird that my buddy use to drink in high school. Or the other quote-Even the honey is bitter.
Can women write those pains? I don't think so because those are only writable when you are heavily heart broken and women don't suffer the way males do because they don't get rejected the way males get slapped for being males.
I'm going to now play the guitar.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Not A Mexican American Issue
With all the uproar over the Arizona immigration rule which intends to enforce US immigration rules, I can't help but think that we need a Mexican American voice.
Contrary to what many believe, immigration is not a Mexican American issue. It never has been because Mexican American refers to US born. Hence if one is not US born then the legal protection granted to its citizenry does not pertain to foreign born even if born along the border, though there might be a cultural bond of a region versus someone who moves from the south of Mexico north. Because to be born in Baja California along the border is different than to be born in Sinaloa, Zacatecas or Jalisco; they are not the same by geography, space, history. When my mother was born in Baja California, Baja California Norte was only a territory and people born in Baja or those who lived there had to prove they were Mexicans to travel on to the mainland.
Can you believe that? Baja California people had to show papers to step on to mainland Mexico. I saw this once in 1978 when I traveled with my father to Cajeme, Cd. Obregon, Sonora. Though my father was born in Mexicali and had his residency established by his mother in the late 1950's, my father got harassed because he was considered American and not Mexican because he had a US residency card and a California license. My father never lived in Baja after 10 so he never had a Baja California identification.
My maternal grandmother also from Baja California told me how she was harassed by Mexican officials when she traveled to Guanajuato in the early 1980's. The official did not believe she was a Mexican citizen though culturally she met the criteria. She was a rancho woman from the valley of the Sierra Cucapah so she did not back down from a fight. The Mexican Country immigration officer told her she would not travel any further without an identification and she resorted to her rancho ways by proving to him that she was born in Mexico. The man tired but these two incidents taught me that Baja California people were not considered Mexicans in the continental definition, they were first Baja Califorences before they were Mexicans because my people came from a land that was separated from Mexico and it was. That is what made Baja California people special.
Even our lingo was half English in the Spanish. No wonder I could not pass the FBI Linguistic Exam because my Baja California language is made up of two mixed in with Apache words that only us Baja California people comprehended. I hated this ex Bolivian girlfriend I had years ago because she was always correcting how I spoke. What did the idiot understand about my upbringing? Stupid South Americans show up to California and attempt to impose their mediocre cultural attributes. I really hated this woman.
Thus returning to the immigration issue, look if you were not born here and if the family was not around for the amnesty that the Republicans passed and granted US residency to 3 plus millions who then think wonders of Ronald Reagan, ICE has the right to deport you at any given moment. They do it all the time, why should some be deported and others not?
Mexican Americans are not going to get deported, hell if you have a criminal record which many of you do, even with non-criminal issues such as back pay child support, they won't give you a passport and let you out of the country. The US is your prison.
The media in Spanish plays this up, the politicians who believe this is a civil rights issue which it is not because it is an issue of the US government allowing you in. A civil rights issue is why are there so many Mexican Americans without employment versus foreign born have jobs. And I do not only mean Mexico born, I mean Guatemala, El Salvador, Cuba, Canada, China, England, Israel, Korea, Saudi Arabia, Germany, the Netherlands and France born. I do not even believe a Puerto Rican born should have a job over a US born Mexican American in California.
Why should all these foreign born have employment over US born and in particular over Mexican Americans? What does American citizenship mean by birth? As of now, nothing.
Before all these people from India or Mexico arrived, there were still doctors and manual labor was being completed by Mexican Americans, so we don't need doctors from India or Iran. Mexico produces an abundance of doctors and they earn less in Gross Domestic Products than the US.
These immigration protests are distracting the real issues facing Mexican Americans which is their right to the basics of food, shelter and a future. Why should somebody born in southern Mexico be hired to teach Chicano Studies over a US born Mexican American? What does a Mexican know about Mexican Americans?
And private institutions that allow undocumented students in when they could have educated a Mexican American such as Harvard, then shame on you for turning your backs on American citizens. The focus on worldly issues is only doing harm to this country by ignoring US citizens who just happen to be brown, have a Spanish surname but are born in the US. Yes, there are many brown people born in the US, all of US do not come from Mexico, we come from the US.
So as you think about these protests just remember that the immigrant population is crying louder and are paid more attention than Mexican Americans who are still pushed aside and called lazy by these very same immigrant Mexicans simply because being US born is considered to be a privilege when it is not. But an immigrant Mexican would not know this because they do not have the history of from the cradle to the present.
I honestly could careless what happens to undocumented Mexicans, I have to worry about myself getting a job because those jobs went to foreigners at CSULB in Chicano Studies and had no qualms about my well being or me being without benefits for my children while they bask in luxury.
The Fed. Govt. will do what they want to and nobody can stop them.
Many of these people will adjust well in southern Mexico were most of them are from and we won't have to listen to them victimize themselves. They could teach English down there, why should Mexico import White teachers when those Mexicans can teach them. For those Indian doctors, you are needed in India.
If you get stopped by the police, show them your identification and if you aren't texting while driving, wearing your seatbelt, you should be fine.
JSC
Contrary to what many believe, immigration is not a Mexican American issue. It never has been because Mexican American refers to US born. Hence if one is not US born then the legal protection granted to its citizenry does not pertain to foreign born even if born along the border, though there might be a cultural bond of a region versus someone who moves from the south of Mexico north. Because to be born in Baja California along the border is different than to be born in Sinaloa, Zacatecas or Jalisco; they are not the same by geography, space, history. When my mother was born in Baja California, Baja California Norte was only a territory and people born in Baja or those who lived there had to prove they were Mexicans to travel on to the mainland.
Can you believe that? Baja California people had to show papers to step on to mainland Mexico. I saw this once in 1978 when I traveled with my father to Cajeme, Cd. Obregon, Sonora. Though my father was born in Mexicali and had his residency established by his mother in the late 1950's, my father got harassed because he was considered American and not Mexican because he had a US residency card and a California license. My father never lived in Baja after 10 so he never had a Baja California identification.
My maternal grandmother also from Baja California told me how she was harassed by Mexican officials when she traveled to Guanajuato in the early 1980's. The official did not believe she was a Mexican citizen though culturally she met the criteria. She was a rancho woman from the valley of the Sierra Cucapah so she did not back down from a fight. The Mexican Country immigration officer told her she would not travel any further without an identification and she resorted to her rancho ways by proving to him that she was born in Mexico. The man tired but these two incidents taught me that Baja California people were not considered Mexicans in the continental definition, they were first Baja Califorences before they were Mexicans because my people came from a land that was separated from Mexico and it was. That is what made Baja California people special.
Even our lingo was half English in the Spanish. No wonder I could not pass the FBI Linguistic Exam because my Baja California language is made up of two mixed in with Apache words that only us Baja California people comprehended. I hated this ex Bolivian girlfriend I had years ago because she was always correcting how I spoke. What did the idiot understand about my upbringing? Stupid South Americans show up to California and attempt to impose their mediocre cultural attributes. I really hated this woman.
Thus returning to the immigration issue, look if you were not born here and if the family was not around for the amnesty that the Republicans passed and granted US residency to 3 plus millions who then think wonders of Ronald Reagan, ICE has the right to deport you at any given moment. They do it all the time, why should some be deported and others not?
Mexican Americans are not going to get deported, hell if you have a criminal record which many of you do, even with non-criminal issues such as back pay child support, they won't give you a passport and let you out of the country. The US is your prison.
The media in Spanish plays this up, the politicians who believe this is a civil rights issue which it is not because it is an issue of the US government allowing you in. A civil rights issue is why are there so many Mexican Americans without employment versus foreign born have jobs. And I do not only mean Mexico born, I mean Guatemala, El Salvador, Cuba, Canada, China, England, Israel, Korea, Saudi Arabia, Germany, the Netherlands and France born. I do not even believe a Puerto Rican born should have a job over a US born Mexican American in California.
Why should all these foreign born have employment over US born and in particular over Mexican Americans? What does American citizenship mean by birth? As of now, nothing.
Before all these people from India or Mexico arrived, there were still doctors and manual labor was being completed by Mexican Americans, so we don't need doctors from India or Iran. Mexico produces an abundance of doctors and they earn less in Gross Domestic Products than the US.
These immigration protests are distracting the real issues facing Mexican Americans which is their right to the basics of food, shelter and a future. Why should somebody born in southern Mexico be hired to teach Chicano Studies over a US born Mexican American? What does a Mexican know about Mexican Americans?
And private institutions that allow undocumented students in when they could have educated a Mexican American such as Harvard, then shame on you for turning your backs on American citizens. The focus on worldly issues is only doing harm to this country by ignoring US citizens who just happen to be brown, have a Spanish surname but are born in the US. Yes, there are many brown people born in the US, all of US do not come from Mexico, we come from the US.
So as you think about these protests just remember that the immigrant population is crying louder and are paid more attention than Mexican Americans who are still pushed aside and called lazy by these very same immigrant Mexicans simply because being US born is considered to be a privilege when it is not. But an immigrant Mexican would not know this because they do not have the history of from the cradle to the present.
I honestly could careless what happens to undocumented Mexicans, I have to worry about myself getting a job because those jobs went to foreigners at CSULB in Chicano Studies and had no qualms about my well being or me being without benefits for my children while they bask in luxury.
The Fed. Govt. will do what they want to and nobody can stop them.
Many of these people will adjust well in southern Mexico were most of them are from and we won't have to listen to them victimize themselves. They could teach English down there, why should Mexico import White teachers when those Mexicans can teach them. For those Indian doctors, you are needed in India.
If you get stopped by the police, show them your identification and if you aren't texting while driving, wearing your seatbelt, you should be fine.
JSC
Friday, May 21, 2010
The Cerebro
What does the cerebro mean? I'm not sure. I have limited usage and almost none when it comes to math but at times my instinct kicks in and my cerebro seems to function but first without making some of the most stupid mistakes in my life. I won't say what they are because I want to forget but I at times have not used my cerebro whether it was in the woman I chose or they chose me. I think they chose me and I was the no cerebro man that said yest. What was I suppose to say no? Let me think about it. I just didn't believe it would destroy part of my career but is there really one when you work at a community college that seems to have the worse reputation or is that just being part of Los Angeles.
What is my cerebro? Entertaining people, I'm not quite good at that or attempting to think things out. Yet then again it seems that I am only copying something from the past because it does not seem to come from thin air. Are we just fascist products of Americanism and Catholocism-Christiantiy that I am only suppose to follow orders that can't be followed. Not that I believe in the opposite of fascism because they seem to be the same tenor of follow someone else's orders or to just say hello no matter how much the suppository hurts.
Or maybe it's my metformin speaking for me telling me that I need to balance my sugar and insulin because otherwise I can die from a heart attack which might not be a bad thing after all except that I would leave my children and dogs behind and I just could not betray them that way. I can be faithful to them but not to no woman much less a strange woman. I am after all an Apache Mayo Cucapah where many wives were the norm until women accepted Christianity.
Off I go to the delves of the spirit where I venture off and wonder if I will return.
What is my cerebro? Entertaining people, I'm not quite good at that or attempting to think things out. Yet then again it seems that I am only copying something from the past because it does not seem to come from thin air. Are we just fascist products of Americanism and Catholocism-Christiantiy that I am only suppose to follow orders that can't be followed. Not that I believe in the opposite of fascism because they seem to be the same tenor of follow someone else's orders or to just say hello no matter how much the suppository hurts.
Or maybe it's my metformin speaking for me telling me that I need to balance my sugar and insulin because otherwise I can die from a heart attack which might not be a bad thing after all except that I would leave my children and dogs behind and I just could not betray them that way. I can be faithful to them but not to no woman much less a strange woman. I am after all an Apache Mayo Cucapah where many wives were the norm until women accepted Christianity.
Off I go to the delves of the spirit where I venture off and wonder if I will return.
Monday, April 26, 2010
New Challenges
I have not written in a while because I finished a new book on California--my California and started a new one on Christianity. It is ironic that I am writing a book on this African Mediterrenean religion which has nothing to do with desert Apache culture but nonetheless it is ever present. I will see what comes out because writing is like a relationship you never know what the end product will be. They mostly end.
I don't write too much because I do not believe someone is reading except my faithful five friends whom I am ever thankful for.
I sat on a panel last week at Cypress College with Hugo Moreno, Sandra Lopez and Gustavo Arellano. It was insane simply because the students had read my book "Higher Education as Ignorance" versus only hearing what the others read. All were good in their uniqueness and we shared our views which depended on who we were as people.
The common questions to me were about "Machismo" simply because I put it out on the pages and obviously there is interest even if they disagree. I like machismo as I told the class, it was my mother's fault in a good way. It is a survival strategy because we do not live in a nice society. If you do not know how to defend yourself, you won't survive. I live it: all my work places have been places of conflict that have ruined my small career I have if you consider teaching as a part time faculty a career. Some would argue community colleges are grade 13 from ages 18-30. Women have been conflicting and how much money didn't I blow there. Now I am smart, I spend it on my soccer games.
Most did not like what I said but they have their reasons but I have mine and obviously the two publishers of my books: Floricanto Press and Rowman and Littlefield believe there is a necessity there. Lastly, I just cannot accept being pushed around by anybody, much less a woman, I have my personal pride.
If you buy my books and read them I would love to discuss my thoughts because I do not believe in borrowing ideals nor quoting others. I stand and fall on my own words and even though I do not have institutional support or a godfather, my books can be checked out at college libraries. I do see life like hell because it is.
Now I have to find a job which is the worse right now for Mexican American males who have the highest unemployment rate in California. Degrees mean nothing for me.
I don't write too much because I do not believe someone is reading except my faithful five friends whom I am ever thankful for.
I sat on a panel last week at Cypress College with Hugo Moreno, Sandra Lopez and Gustavo Arellano. It was insane simply because the students had read my book "Higher Education as Ignorance" versus only hearing what the others read. All were good in their uniqueness and we shared our views which depended on who we were as people.
The common questions to me were about "Machismo" simply because I put it out on the pages and obviously there is interest even if they disagree. I like machismo as I told the class, it was my mother's fault in a good way. It is a survival strategy because we do not live in a nice society. If you do not know how to defend yourself, you won't survive. I live it: all my work places have been places of conflict that have ruined my small career I have if you consider teaching as a part time faculty a career. Some would argue community colleges are grade 13 from ages 18-30. Women have been conflicting and how much money didn't I blow there. Now I am smart, I spend it on my soccer games.
Most did not like what I said but they have their reasons but I have mine and obviously the two publishers of my books: Floricanto Press and Rowman and Littlefield believe there is a necessity there. Lastly, I just cannot accept being pushed around by anybody, much less a woman, I have my personal pride.
If you buy my books and read them I would love to discuss my thoughts because I do not believe in borrowing ideals nor quoting others. I stand and fall on my own words and even though I do not have institutional support or a godfather, my books can be checked out at college libraries. I do see life like hell because it is.
Now I have to find a job which is the worse right now for Mexican American males who have the highest unemployment rate in California. Degrees mean nothing for me.
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