In these moments of hard times, I cannot help but think that I live in a society that can drive anybody to be suicidal.
This era reminds me of the early 1980's when you could feel evil in the sky in the dredful Reagan Years and I feel it again. I lived hunger and at times suicide felt like an escape even as a teenager. I see my life quite similar to my father's years of primarily being laid off and trying what ever the White society permitted him to do. Which was not much. I am there again and as I enter the 40 category I am not sure I want to live with these circumstances. I deserve better than to be beggin to stupid people of all races and even to foreign immigrants of all colors who have been given the green light. So much for birth. When foreigners have more access than a US born something is wrong.
And don't forget that more women have access especially in my field so I have to go and ask a woman now. A White male is not enough, now a woman too. Times are sad.
This era reminds me of the early 1980's when you could feel evil in the sky in the dredful Reagan Years and I feel it again. I lived hunger and at times suicide felt like an escape even as a teenager. I see my life quite similar to my father's years of primarily being laid off and trying what ever the White society permitted him to do. Which was not much. I am there again and as I enter the 40 category I am not sure I want to live with these circumstances. I deserve better than to be beggin to stupid people of all races and even to foreign immigrants of all colors who have been given the green light. So much for birth. When foreigners have more access than a US born something is wrong.
And don't forget that more women have access especially in my field so I have to go and ask a woman now. A White male is not enough, now a woman too. Times are sad.
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